Dinner with "my ninam"

Ethan can't say Liam- so he says "ninam" or something like that. No matter what he calls him, Ethan loves his Liam! The McConnels came over for dinner and we all played, giggled, and chowed down. Lucas just wants to grab everything! Both of our boys had to go to bed early after being up too late the last couple of nights, so we put them to bed and I got to play with Liam for a while. He's already changed so much! He did go through three diapers and pee all over my lap, but what's new? All my clothes are covered in various nasties these days.
Liam decided he liked this ugly little lion that we got Ethan last Easter. Lucas loves it too. Is it the colors? It's just odd... babies! You buy them these great toys and what do they like, the ugly lion tied to the top of the jelly beans. You'd think that'd make me stop buying nice things, but I can't help it.
I'm in this confusing state right now where I want lucas to stay little, but at the same time I want him to be old enough to play with his brother and friends. I want him to grow up but at the same time I totally don't! I think with Ethan it was easier because I knew it wouldn't be our last. With Lucas, it might be. So either my friends have to just keep having babies for me to get my baby fix with or said babies have to stay small! I think I need to go to bed now- not sure I'm making sense!